THE DEBUT ALBUM
This album is my first cohesive musical project. My goals with this project were to create a cohesive body of work that conveyed a relatable and emotional message, displayed my vocal range and production skills, and had a distinct purpose to exist. Music is the most beautiful form of communication and IDENTITY is a message.
The album's two lyrical pillars are love and loss. I dug deep into my personal struggles and traumatic experiences to write the lyrics. My parents were divorced. My father committed suicide in 2010. I went through many personal issues. IDENTITY may seem dark, it may seem depressing, but it is a message of hope in it's own right. It is an expression of understanding and companionship; that everyone feels these things in some way and at some time.
KNOW ME is a piano and string driven ballad that's message is about self worth and struggling to find a purpose. It was written last among all the songs on the album.
BE ALONE represents a raw and pure human feeling. Wanting love, wanting companionship, wanting not to be alone. It features an ambient synth backing with flute samples that I recorded in my studio
LET ME DOWN is dedicated to my late father. It relates the struggles I have had with missing him and hating him simultaneously.
FROZEN is a love song that is driven by synths, guitars, and heavily-effected piano samples. The lyrics detail struggling with feeling disconnected and metaphorically 'frozen'.
DANGEROUS is one of the two heavy hitting power ballads. It was inspired by cinematic and symphonic music that I heard and I wanted to create that sort of grandiose effect.
VAPOR features Sophie Naden Johns on the cello. She really makes this song pop and stand out as one of my personal favorites on the album.
LOVE AND DESPAIR is the other of my power ballads. It was written originally as an R+B jam with two parts and I scrapped the initial part and reworked the second part to create this version.
TOO MUCH is a futuristic love ballad that uses a piano with a low-cut filter and some symphonic drum hits to create the background.
FALSE OXYGEN is another falsetto-heavy song that mixes with ambient synths to create a very moody and dark atmosphere. False Oxygen was a turning point in my writing process. After it was written the style and artistic feel of the entire album really came into view. I went back and rewrote and reproduced almost all the songs on the album to fit into the ambient, very moody atmospheric that False Oxygen represented. It also marked a turning point in my production style because I started using certain effects and virtual instruments specifically reverbs that really made the project cohesive.
DONE was written on a Monday. I wrote out the lyrics while experiencing pure exhaustion and frustration. I released Done on Soundcloud as one of my 3 original songs I ever released. This version was completely reworked to keep the initial idea of the original song while adding a more ambient mood and making it fit in with the rest of the album.